Sleepiness and cumulative fatigue

Yesterday, I suddenly suffered from fatigue and extreme sleepiness.  I didn’t want to do anything yesterday…  So, I went to bed early last night.  Perhaps, cumulative fatigue and nervousness for this three weeks made me so.  Now, I'm all right.

A lot of synonymous words with “kind”

I want to share with you a number of synonymous words with “kind” in English.  Why do I want to do that?  That is because there are a lot of kind people around me in America.  I’m really happy that I’m with a nice circle of friends.  So, I wanted to know the same meaning of “kind.” I was surprised that there were a long list of words same as “kind” in my dictionary.

-kindly

-good-natured

-warm-hearted

-tender-hearted

-warm-hearted

-soft-hearted

-good-hearted

-tender

-caring

-feeling

-affectionate

-loving

-warm

-gentle

-mellow

-mild

-considerate

-helpful

-thoughtful

-obliging

-unselfish

-selfless

-altruistic

-good

-cooperative

-accommodating

-attentive

-compassionate

-sympathetic

-understanding

-big-hearted

-benevolent

-benign

-friendly

-neighbourly

-courteous

-agreeable

-pleasant

-nice

-amiable

-hospitable

-well meaning

-well intentioned

-public-spirited

-well meant

-generous

-magnanimous

-indulgent

-tolerant

-charitable

-gracious

-lenient

-humane

-merciful

-clement

-pitying

-forbearing

…(red letter words mean I have never known before) 

How many “kind” people will I meet in this wonderful world from now?

“I” is subjectivity forever

When I read the chapter of "THE IDEALIZATION OF DISIDENTIFICATION" in this book, I shouted “Oh, great!!”

Why did I shout?  That is because some paragraphs in the chapter were very insightful for me.  “I (self)” is always, always, always subjectivity, so “I” is never objectified.  In the past, I have regarded “I” as feelings, experiences or thoughts.  Instead, “I” is subjectivity forever and ever.  Thinking about this, I remembered the idea of “emptiness” in Buddhism.

 

Masculinities and Well-Being workshop

Yesterday, I joined a group psychotherapy workshop at JFKU Berkeley campus.  This was first time for me to experience group psychotherapy and to go to JFKU Berkeley campus.  I thought that a group psychotherapy had wonderful power to transform ourselves. 

Various “me”: Subpersonality

Have you ever noticed that you behave differently in your office, at home, in social interplay, in solitude, at church, or as a member of a political party? – Roberto Assagioli

Yes, I have wondered why I behave differently in accordance with various situations.  I’ve been curious about this thing.  However, I’ve been worried about various “me.”  I didn’t know who is a real “me”.  Yeah, I noticed that all are real “me.”  Various subpersonalities exist in each of us.  My text book I’m reading now says “Subpersonalities are normal.”  I’m relieved to read that because I’m not crazy but normal.

Bibliography: Psychosynthesis: A Psychology of the Spirit (Suny Series in Transpersonal and Humanistic Psychology)

My Integral Life Practice

After reading the book – INTEGRAL LIFE PRACTICE A 21st Century Blueprint for Physical Health, Emotional Balance, Mental Clarity, and Spiritual Awakening, I have performed ILP for my growth every day.  The below charts are my practices when I live in Japan and I revised some practices and their frequencies (see red ink).

Gross Body Module

Practices	Frequency
Push-ups, Squats, Crunches	Once every two days
Running	Almost every day 25minutes around Pleasant Hill
Half Marathon (21.0975km)	Three times a year
Full Marathon (42.195km)	One time a year
Soccer	Sometimes

I really want to play soccer in California.  I registered my profile into “San Francisco Bay Area Team Search” but very sadly I’ve not been offered by any team.  So, I’m wondering whether I should participate in a “5 on 5 soccer” team or not.  To be honest with you, I want to join a standard soccer team (11 on 11)…

Subtle Body Module

Practices	Frequency
Kundalini Yoga	Every morning and every night
Qigong	Every night  5-10 minutes
Subtle Breath Practice	Every night

Oh, recently I blow off my “Breath Practice.”  I’ll restart it again!

Mind Module

Practices	Frequency
Reading (Related to Integral Theory, Management, Philosophy, Psychology or Sociology, etc.)	Every day
Study Session (Related to Ken Wilber or Integral Theory)	Every month I joined this wonderful group in Japan, of course now I can’t join.
Learning English (very hard?)	Every day!
Writing Blogs (Both English and Japanese)	Every day

 

Spirit Module

Practices	Frequency
Meditation	Every morning (15-20minutes) and every night (20minutes)

Shadow Module

Practices	Frequency
3-2-1 Shadow Process	Every time when my shadow emerged
Bohm Dialogue	Every Tuesday
Dream Work	Every Thursday

Now I join two wonderful study group, “Bohm Dialogue” and “Dream Work” group.  Both groups are really useful for my shadow work.  What kind of practices do you do every day?  Please share with me!

Bibliography:Integral Life Practice: A 21st-Century Blueprint for Physical Health, Emotional Balance, Mental Clarity, and Spiritual Awakening

Remember how I acquired my native language!

While I was taking a shower today, I was mumbling to myself “Remember how I acquired my native language.  Remember how I acquired my native language…” again and again.  If I find the way I acquired Japanese language, the process will be applicable to English.  Dating back to my babyhood, at first I didn’t learn Japanese from “letter or character.”  Yeah, I learned it through verbal communication with my parents.  Of course, it is important to read a book in order to study in the academic world but firstly I have to install “English” software into my brain by talking or listening.  Now, I think that I need to change my brain OS (Operating System) from Japanese to English.  I want to believe that my brain is like a high quality computer, haha.