Is this a wonderful opportunity for me?: Shadow is beautiful!

As I said before, some new types of shadow emerged in me.  That may be because my life environment changed dramatically.  Wait, wait.  This situation can be a very beneficial opportunity to practice my shadow work!  Now, I’ll show you my shadow work (3-2-1 shadow practice) below.

3- Face it

I’m so irritated with me because I can’t say smoothly in English what I’m thinking.  On the other hand, to me, my classmates look very smart because they can express their ideas fully.  What do I contribute to my classmates and class?  Nothing… Even if there is my contribution in my class, the size is like a tiny ant.  I wish I could speak like a native speaker.  I’m worried about what my classmates think of me.

2- Talk to it

Me: I’m so sorry.  I’m sorry that I can’t give you anything in the class.  And my poor English…

Classmate: Sorry what?  You are trying to speak English hard even if that is little.

Me: Thank you, but I want to tell you more.  And I want to speak more clearly. 

Classmate: When did you come to America?

Me: On March 21^st.  Almost one month has passed.

Classmate: One month?  Don’t worry.  It’s natural that you can’t speak English very well.

Me: Thanks, but I think that is my mere excuse.  What do I contribute to the class?

Classmate: That’s a difficult question, haha.  Umm…Let me think about it… Eureka!!  You can create a nice atmosphere in the class with us!!

Me: That's it?

Classmate: Yeah, of course, that's it!

Me: Hahaha, but thank you so much!  I’m really happy to share same place and same time with you!!

1 Be it

I become my classmate.  I am an invaluable man in the class.  I have unique experiences and insights to contribute. To live in another country brings us a lot of precious opportunities to face our new shadow and practice shadow work.  Our dark shadow can be our bright shadow.  Shadow is beautiful!!!

Reference:

Integral Life Practice: A 21st-Century Blueprint for Physical Health, Emotional Balance, Mental Clarity, and Spiritual Awakening

New shadow appears?: Most irritating thing for me

Now, the most irritating thing is that I can’t speak freely what I’m really thinking in my mind.  I can express my thinking, and what I want to share with my friends and classmates in a simple sentence or some words…  That makes me so frustrating!  Also, in today’s class, I made a comment, but I couldn’t tell it very well.  All classmates except me could share fully their own experiences or ideas, but I couldn’t.  This situation brings me a new shadow.

Soul Letter: psychosynthesis techniue

Today, I learnt “Soul Letter” practice from my teacher in a psychosynthesis class.  This is one of psychosynthesis techniques and also a very useful transformational tool.  Perhaps, I might miss some points in the explanation, but the following is the overview of this technique, I suppose.

First, write down any questions freely by intuition on your notebook or a piece of paper, which you are coming up with in your mind.  After writing down them, sign your name below the letter.

Second, answer the questions freely by intuition. 

This technique is a kind of free writing. I try to practice this exercise in the morning.