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Thursday, February 17, 2011

Transmuting My Authentic Primary Emotions



I rarely become irritated, but today, I felt angry at something. I don’t know what “something” is. I thought this is good opportunity to face with my feeling.

The following practice of transmuting emotions is shown in Integral Life Practice (p61) which is one of my bibles. This practice is very simple and this is comprised of five steps.

1 Notice what you are feeling and how this shows up in your body, both physically and energetically.

2 Relax the tendency to judge, suppress, or otherwise react to it, and just allow it to be what it is, embracing it with awareness.

3 If your emotion is about someone or something, relax your relationship to the object. Let the emotional energy be there. Notice that it is arising within you (rather than happening to you, as in “she makes me feel this way.”) Relax into full responsibility for your emotional patterns and energies.

4 Feel the energy of your emotion and the situation or relationship in which it is arising. Breathe and allow the energy of the emotion to flow. Notice how that can take place constructively rather than destructively. Take several breaths and notice how the emotion changes as it is channeled and circulated.

5 Pay attention until you recognize the transitory nature of the emotion and allow its raw energy to self-liberate, like water boiling into steam, as a free, unobstructed, and positive expression.

The key point of the above process is the acceptance and allowance of the emotion. Then I let my emotion show itself to me. I let it reveal the liberated, unobstructed, or awakened expression of its raw energies.

I want to make use of my negative feeling to energize my life.

Authentic Emotion

Liberated Energy of Emotion

Anger, critical mind

Clarity, integrity, and penetrating intelligence

My inner feeling now



Previously, I always enjoyed new challenges in my life. So, when I did something new, my inner feeling ratio was “expectation: anxiety=100:0” at all times. Yes, I was very positive, I think.

However, this time, to study abroad in America, is a big challenge for me. To tell you the truth, my inner feeling ratio was “expectation: anxiety=30:70” one month ago, and now is 51:49.

Anxiety is still high, because I’ll definitely struggle with a communication in English.

I wish the ratio would be 100:0 soon.