Type 1 | Type 2 | Type 3 | Type 4 | Type 5 | Type 6 | Type 7 | Type 8 | Type 9 |
13 | 19 | 21 | 12 | 12 | 4 | 30 | 21 | 12 |
The above is my Enneagram test result. As the result indicates, type two has a comparatively strong influence on me. To tell you the truth, I was surprised by this result, because I didn’t think of me as a helper at all. In that sense, the Enneagram test helped me to find hidden aspects in me.
In retrospect, I was not merciful man for others when I was a kid. Perhaps, type two didn’t affect me so much when I was young. However, as I grew older, I became generous, helpful, and considerate little by little. In other words, my egocentrism gradually decreased in accordance with my psychological growth, and I became able to put myself in others’ shoes. In fact, I couldn’t only think about others, but also I couldn’t think about myself when I was a young boy, but I became able to objectify myself and to be kind to others. As for this point, I think that type two in me has gradually appeared since I was around 15 years old. I remember that I could have thought about others’ thoughts, emotions, and feelings since after junior high school.
In addition, I tended to fear that I wasn’t loved by others. This is a superego of type two. About this point, Riso and Hudson (1999) point out that “In the average-to-unhealthy Levels, Twos present a false image of being completely generous and unselfish and of not wanting any kind of payoff for themselves, when in fact they can have enormous expectations and unacknowledged emotional needs” (p. 128). Considering I sometimes did something extraordinary in order to receive love from others, I may have fallen into unhealthy type two.
Although I may have had negative aspects of type two, I have manifested the healthy aspects of type two. Regarding the strength of type two, Riso and Hudson (1999) indicate that “Twos are gifted with the extraordinary ability not simply to care about others but to actually do something meaningful for them” (p. 146). I can come to be kind and helpful for both others and I. In other words, I become able to maintain good balance between compassion for others and consideration for me.
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