Listen to my angels

This week, I learned about Zoroastrianism in the World Religion class.  To tell you the truth, I didn’t know about it at all before the class.  So, this week’s class was really helpful to understand it deeply.  The following post is about my essay which I wrote in the class.

Does Zoroastrianism contribute to my heath and wholeness?  Yes, it does, I think.  I received a beneficial hint from the Zoroastrianism’s idea about discernment of wrong or right.  To tell you the truth, I can’t sometimes discern good from evil about my act and will. And also now, I’m wrestling with the dilemma between good and evil, especially about my future.  After I graduate from JFKU (Integral Psychology Program), I’d like to be an organizational consultant and coach by applying Integral Theory and psychological knowledge.  In other words, I’d like to contribute to the business world based on my unique insights or experiences which I cultivate here. 

However, I sometimes feel guilty about the following question.  “Who could benefit from my work?”  I’d like to answer this question “Of course, not only my clients but also those around them could benefit from my work.” ,but I sometimes suppose that not my clients but I could benefit from my work and I may have a strong desire for my success not for others’ success.  I really would like to support my clients from my heart and I hope that my clients will succeed.  However, perhaps I may wish my wealth and fame deep in my heart…

Although I disliked the duality hidden in me, I decided to accept my duality after reading the Zoroastrianism’s idea that “the dualism of good and evil spirits is a moral dualism, existing not in nature or in the Godhead but in the human heart and mind.”  It is not unusual for us to face with moral dilemma in various scenes.  Therefore, it is important for us not to look away from the dualism but to face it sincerely.

Here again, I’d like to answer the previous my question “Who could benefit from my work?” like this “Yes, both others and I. I’d like to work for others and me devoting my heart and soul.”  This is my honest answer.

If I face with ethical dilemma in my future, I’d like to relax and listen carefully to the voice of my angels which are messengers of my God.  I believe that the voice will give wholeness to my life.

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